I’m Being Pulled in a Million Directions

I have applied for seventeen different positions at this point. SEVENTEEN.

I have heard back from five.

Two were simply letting me know they would pass my information along to somebody else to look at when they could.

Two were contacting me hoping that I could learn an entire new content subject to teach and were, therefore, useless.

The last one did a sort of pre-interview. I guess they wanted to make sure I wasn’t a psycho before they passed my information along to a principal. So this one ends up in the first category after all.

Either way, not a ton of nibbles.

I have been talking to other people who have gone through similar situations. The general consensus on teachers leaving their school seems to be that now they must:

  • find a new job
  • go back to school
  • become a stay-at-home-parent
  • change careers entirely

I am trying to look at any and all options available. Too bad I don’t have many. Either way, I am starting to feel like I am trying to do too much at one time. Like I am spreading myself out more and more to try to cover more ground. I can’t be everywhere at once, but how else can I find a solution if I don’t look everywhere?

Obviously I am trying to find a new job. I scour the district job sites ALL THE TIME. Plenty of jobs available in subjects I don’t teach. New ones being added all the time. But not in anything I can teach.

I would love to go back to school, but we just can’t swing it financially. Having a baby costs so much money. I mean, really. Who could have thought that babies need health care, daycare, food, toys, diapers, clothes, and more? (In case you missed it, this was sarcasm. Obviously we knew that babies were expensive.) So much more. Me wanting to get a Master’s clearly takes a backseat to her vital needs.

Ideally, I would love to be a stay-at-home mom. But again, babies are expensive. I really wish this was an option for me. But when two teachers get married, they have signed an eternal pact to not ever have extra money and barely scrape by as it is… So taking one of those teacher’s salaries out of the picture (and the wallets) would definitely not work.

I am not qualified to do anything else. All I have ever done was worked in restaurants/bars, retail, or education. I am so over the food and hospitality industry. Same with retail. Honestly, I am wondering if I am also over education. Why am I not skilled in anything that people want to pay me for?


I have been looking into doing some freelance writing. Even just as a “side hustle” for now. If I can make enough in a month to pay for the diapers we use in that month, that would be a win. It would be preferable to do more, but small steps.

Just like my baby. Taking her tiny little steps, walking around.

I want to be enjoying all of these firsts, but I am freaking out over this small job problem.

She’s getting big so fast (metaphorically-speaking, since she is a tiny squirt in the 30 percentile size-wise). And while I’d love to have another, it isn’t likely, since… well… the money issue.

Money makes the world go around. But what they don’t tell you is that “around” is referring to the gerbil wheel you are running on.


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