I Feel Stretched Too Thin

I know, I am being horribly neglectful to the blog. But apparently, according to my therapist, I am being horribly neglectful to myself. I just don’t have enough time for everything everybody expects me to do.

Typical to-do list, going directly from one thing to the next:

  • Wake up and feed the toddler
  • Teach a couple of classes via the satellite program I work for
  • Commute to work
  • Teach classes at school
  • Work on tech during my lunch and conference
  • Commute home
  • Make dinner
  • Feed toddler
  • Clean kitchen/play with toddler
  • Get her ready for bed

When I get up at 5 and she isn’t asleep until 8, I often don’t get 30 minutes to sit down and do nothing until 8:30.

And she wants to know why I don’t go out and do something for myself.

When? In that magical two hour break that only exists in my imagination? I didn’t realize I could transfer that to real time.

In the evening when the baby is asleep? Most places are closed then. Plus, I get up at 5 so I want to sleep. Or maybe take a quick shower if I am feeling fancy.

Trust me, I would love to just sit and do nothing. Take a bath. Zone out and watch a movie. Get a pedicure.

But this work schedule sucks. It is a vampire stealing everything.

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I Don’t Have Energy

Several days of lethargy. I just don’t want to do anything besides lay down and read. I don’t have a cold or anything. I just don’t have motivation.

I am really, really tired.

I don’t really have much to say besides that.

I used to write so much more, but I just feel drained.

I used to do so much more.

I don’t have any other symptoms. I just want to rest.

Hopefully I will get that soon. I thought I would over break, but hosting family is pretty stressful. The rest that I got at the start of the week was all spent on that.

I feel like a car that is almost always running on empty. When the light starts blinking letting me know I am about to stop, I put in $5 just to keep going.

On the plus, at least I am able to do that! The car hasn’t given up!